Analog Update [So, I've been struggling with...]

So, I've been struggling with focus as of late, and every time my mind meanders back to realizing this blog hasn't been updated in over a month I am filled with guilt for failing to do so. I have like 4 drafts half written and awaiting that spark of certainty that just refuses to make itself known.

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So, I've been struggling with follow-through as of late, finding myself making lists over and over, with the hope that in the time between required tasks, I can take charge of my intentions and get it done! Get caught up, be creative, and feel like I'm building back to a place where I'm on path with community, intention, and presence. Unfortunately, I keep getting stuck half way through that effort and the pile of incomplete efforts grows and grows

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So, I've been struggling with identity as of late, realizing as I begin reaching out to new folks to arrange collaborative shoot opportunities that I really don't feel like I have a proper semblance of what a photo shoot with me looks like. I've always been happy to define myself as a jack of all trades, able to make any scenario uniquely my own, but ever since the shift from digital to analog focus I haven't really identified what the new stylistic root looks like. Am I locking myself into a place of shutter-dragged haunting? What of my yearning for fish-eyed PS2 advertisement era strangeness? What of crisp, high contrast gothic spice? Not even to mention this new from-soft inspired obsession with dark fantasy and armored women with swords?! I bought a super-macro lens recently and did you know plants are AWESOME?!

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So, I've been struggling with getting to the point lately, hoping that maybe writing more words will make me feel more accomplished, but inevitably hearing my own words in my own head tossed back at me. The words I've said a thousands times to every friend struggling with every kind of situation life offers up as a new challenge to overcomes.

Just do the thing.

So, I've been struggling with making excuses to actually-

Just do the thing.

So, Ive been struggling with actually getting out there-

Just do the thing.

So, I've been struggling

Just do the thing.

So.

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I'm gonna do the thing,

-e